7 months ago on 19 July 2011 @ 4:15am + 3 notes
# crucial information you guys.

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Post surgery depression. Do you know how frustrating that it to a person, especially if you weren’t the one who had the surgery? I’m trying to come to terms with it and deal with it like a normal person with depression would, but it’s so frustrating. Hypochondriac is a better label to put on it. A severe case of it. Always thinking a headache is a tumor, always thinking a pain in my chest is a heart attack, always assuming a pain in my side more than just a cramp. The doctor says it’s because about 2 months ago, I spent 140 hours, no exaggeration, in hospital visiting my mum after her major surgery. The depression stops you from doing things, one at a time. I have to find a reason to get up in the morning, to get out of my dark room and do something productive. I can’t reply to any type of roleplay paragraph without great difficulty. Forcing yourself to sleep at night isn’t pleasant, is it? No. It’s like a disease that eats at you until you come to a frustrating point and give up. That’s what point I’m at. And I know I neglected this, but I didn’t have the energy to flip on my laptop in the last week. I’m trying so hard to reply and get online. This is the only Pucktana - if it is Pucktana anymore, I’m now assuming it’s Brittana - RP I’m in. I don’t know when I can be on here more. If you want to find another Puck, one that can be on everyday, I won’t be offended. You can tell me and I’ll leave. But if you want me to wait, lemme know also. It would suck to leave though. The girl who plays Santana - I’m so sorry, I’m having the worst time trying to remember what your name was, and this is a sign I roleplay with too many people - you are one of the best Santana’s I’ve ever RP’ed with. Your ghetto-ness and the blend of the softness, it’s perfect. And you seem really sweet out of character also. I just feel bad for not explaining myself for not being on, so there you go. If you want me here and are willing to put up with my half assed replies for a little while, I promise to make more of an effort to be on. So uh. Drop by my ask box and let me know~

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